three days . i should endure the memories . you're still playing in my mind . why ? why won't you let it go ? i'm afraid . if this continues i can't endure it again and i would be more thick-skinned than before . i'm afraid if i really can't forget you and become too childish cause of love i felt right now . i don't like to have someone that i love in the same class . i know . if i have someone i loved in the same class i won't concentrate in my studies . i would always likes to look at you and won't paying any attention to what our lecturers gives us .
would you see me as your woman once ? i know it is hard for you to love me cause you don't have any feelings towards me . but i hope you can see me as a woman not a friends . eventhough it is just for a while , i would like to be alone with you spend my time with you and i want to know more about you . i would like to be friend with you like before . i'm sorry to hurts you last time . i just can't stop my jealousy towards every girls that talks with you .
i'm telling the truth now . i felt jealous when there's girls talking with you . eventhough both of you talks about studies , i really feel jealous . that is how much i really love you and wants to protect you . i know i've makes your life miserable by telling the girls about your past . but i still confuse ! cause when your ex tells me your stories , i really shocked ~ cause i really thinks that you're not that kind of a guy . but when i heard about it , my heart really hurts and you shot me like what my ex does . you shot me at the same place where my ex shot me . it is really bleeding right now .
after so long , i hope you've realize that i love you , but you didn't show any moves or anything that you know about my feelings . but when we played truth or dare , you showed me that you know that i love you and you just wants to avoid it , am i right ? it is okay if you want to avoid me right now . i should do the same as what you were doing to me . i can't forget you . so what i can do right now is , just avoiding you and keep my feelings towards you . sorry to have the feelings towards you .
have a great semester for this semester 2 :)
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Semester Two <3
It is the start of the new semester for my diploma studies . I hope for this semester there will always be a change for me . I would like a change in my life in a new era .
NEW SEMESTER.NEW RESOLUTION.NEW LIFE.
new semester . we have a lot of things to get ready . in this semester we have a lot of arabic written and studies . such as , tarikh tasyri’ , usul fiqh , and nahu . as for tamadun islam and SPI 3 , both in malay . but still , themodule is difficult cause you have to remember a lot of things but not memorising . when you memorised what you have studied , some of the infos will gone just like that like flew from your brain . haha . but now I’ve put myself to study mode and I am now at gear 5
new resolution . for my resolution , I have 3 parts . LIFE , STUDIES , LOVE . as for life , is my first priority cause I want to lead a better ways of life on my new semester . studies . I would always study hard and smart too . I want to focus in class and in assignment . any part in school I would want to concentrate if there’s always be a studies matters . love . I would forget the person I loved . I don’t want to burden him cause I know , with this and with my behaviour , character and everything I would makes him suffer . so , as I was thinking . I would forget about him and focus in one direction = STUDIES !
I hope with what I want to do right will makes me and others happy and pleasure . cause I won’t be diturbing their life again . I would want to lead myself on the right path . I hope he will not suffer again . thanks for his kindness and friendliness . I’m appreciate it a lot . thanks
so as for now it is =
NEW SEMESTER.NEW RESOLUTION.NEW LIFE.
Insomnia Nights
for about 2 days I’ve not sleeping .. why can’t you leave my mind in peace ? why must u hunting me when I wants to forget about you ? *sigh* I really hope that we’re not meant together .. and that we will never be one .. but my mind keeps reminding you and hunting me about you .. why would I fall in love again .. and now I fall in love with someone I can’t be falling in love and that is you ..
some of people told me not to fall in love again .. and if there is the person won’t have to be you .. but I just can’t stop my feelings right ? and I know , I know that youknow about it .. I know that u knew my feelings .. but u kept quiet .. cause to you , girls who loves you have to make the first move then you accept her .. but , I don’t want to step forward first .. cause I know that u won’t love me .. really .. I don’t want to .. but u make me have to do it ..
I would always likes people tells me their stories .. but for my stories nobody wants to hear .. I hope when u knew it u keeps it a secret .. I know guys likes to share their gossips with each other .. but just for this once ! don’t share with other people please .. cause I will feel embarassed .. I know it is one-sided love .. and I won’t get your love back .. anyway , just give my heart back .. my heart that you have stole it from me without permission .. stop kidnapping my heart .. please ~
To My Lovely Madu <3
in th year of 2011 .. I have a new friend in a new school .. I felt really happy and excited cause I’ll be friend with new people with a new environment ..
in this few month I’ve got my true and really GREAT friend that comes to my life (?) or should I say I come to her life ? haha ! she is very nice and good person .. I like her cause she had a good and nice humour .. and with the first look at you ~ u are really a good person .. u really show me what is a true friend is 
walaupun I asyik cakap bad things about diri I kat u , u tk pernah nak menjauhkan diri u dari I .. u mesti cakap , klu I jahat it is time to change .. thanks for your encouragement naddy .. I feel different when I’m with you .. u will encourage someone that u just knew to the right path .. eventhough u know that they are a bad person ..
and I understand why u didn’t give HER a chance , cause u know that she won’t change .. and she will always be here oldself .. now I rrealise , we have to choose the right friend that can lead us to the right path so that u won’t regret in the future ..
walaupun I byk bobal , and becok .. u tk kesa … sbb u ckp u suke org bobal dari org senyap and backstabb org .. tapi I really feel cm kesian kat u, everyday dgr I membebel .. hahaha !
I know u always pretend to be happy , I mmg sengaje buat u ketawe so that u will know what is happy … but u always ckp kat I , sorry klu u pretend to be happy .. I tk kesa , asl kn u slalu tersenyum bile dgn I .. I risau bila u sakit .. I risau bila u selalu sad .. that is why I always buat jokes merepek and wannts to see u tersenyum .. I hope u tk kesa dgn jokes I everyday .. sbb ade org da tkleyh tahan nn jokes I yg merepek tu ..
so last but not least .. I hope dgn semester baru ni , ktrg bina hidup baru , suasana baru and everything baru .. I really wanna change myself ..
I LOVE YOU , NADDY ! & I ALWAYS DID . HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIP LAST LONGER TIL END .
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Sentosa Picnic :)
sentosa ! here we come !
on the 25th of may in the year of 2011 , the boys have planned to do picnic at sentosa beach . ramai yg excited seyh . tapi yg datang only a few jek . 
at around 11+ til 12 , kitorang naik monorail to the beach then we just realize zafirah hilang . haha ! tu paling kekek skali . dorang sume tercari-cari and tunggu sampai fauzi call her then she said she gone already . haha ! we take the monorail and it takes about 5 to 6 minutes to reach the beach station .
after we reach the beach we were waiting for the tram to pahlawan beach . here is the pictures : ~
then after we took the tram we have arrived our destination , we rush to the other side where there’s a bridge and 2 talls building . haha ! I was afraid of the bridge . the bridge goyang goyang seyh . seram ! we setting up and rest for a while , here the picture : ~
haha ! after setting up , kitorang makan . then the guys panjat pokok . haha ! dorang cam ah meng ! OPS ! sory . jangan ambil hati ye . dorang panjat-panjat , kitorang girls yg seram . sebab takot dorang injured . haha ! kitorang cam orang kene tinggal kawan gitu pekik2 suroh turon . haha !
then kitorang main main air pula . best ! simbah simbah air dekat orang . kamilah ! u start dulu simbah air kat aku sampai basah kuyup . haha ! tapi nasib ade baju au . then bila kitorang tengah main-main air lelaki nk step main air kat daerah kitorang then kene simbah lagi . apa lagi , ayien lari lah . dorang tk baik seyh . haha ! but fun juga . only one thing I don’t like , AIR LAUT DIE MASIN GILER ! seriously .
lepas main2 air kitorang amek amek gambar kat air kat beach die
me and shida .
me , shida n mel .
fathah and me .
me , shida and mel #2 .
here are some pics of shida and fathah at the beach side
here are some of the girls pictures :~
and some of the boys pictures with sentosa 
after a few games and the guys swims until 7pm . we went to vivo city to eat . and guess what ? on the way to vivo city we ‘ve gone thru a lot of obstacles . haha ! first , the monorail’s Q was long and crowded , then we plan to take the bus to vivo city . then the bus stops before vivo city . we have to walk along the roads to reach vivo . then we walk til we reach the highway . and we saw the sentosa broadwalk , we follow the path . haha ! and at last we’ve reach the vivo city . hooray ! haha ! an experience night walk with friends . I’ve never been gone thru like this before . haha ! but we’ve taken a few of photos . here we go : ~
WEHE ! we really had a lot of fun on the day ~ thanks to the boys who makes the event successful and actractive ~
I hope and we hope that the next event will have the others to join ~ it is fun if there’s a lot of people .
LOVE YOU ALL K10 !
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Just For You <3
to u, the one I loved and the only one that had stole my heart without my permission and any words ..
I can only let it out here .. I know this is a childish games that never end .. but .. I just stop my feelings from it ..I really like you for all my heart it is .. I just can’t let it go like that .. why did you steal my heart like that ? you’re the first guy that I felt like this .. even wif my ex .. I’ve never feel it this way .. why did you avoid me after all the problem ? avoiding is not the option ..
I tk tawu mcm ane nk ckp .. but this is the first time I feel the true love .. why must I have the feelings towards u ? u’re that perfect .. u’re not an idol that I want whom looked like my father character .. but u ~ u have snatched my heart from my ex-boyfriend .. how u do that ?
I really wants to study .. but bila masuk klas jek .. mesti tk concentrate whenever you’re there in class .. I keep asking myself to stop liking guys cause I’m going to school to study not to having a silly boyfriend in life .. but .. I just can’t stop liking u my love ..
I hope my love is kerana Allah SWT .. but y ? y should I feel thislove ? cause I’m a human being of course .. what else the reason is .. please stop avoiding me .. I feel really sad and hurt .. cause u’re not like ur old self .. it’s okay u hate me .. but please don’t avoid me ..
I love u but I want this feelings to stop cause I want to achieve my dreams .. thanks for being my friend 
Saturday, May 14, 2011
K10 LOVED ! I <3 U !
we’ve been friends for 4 months .. in this 4 months we’ve gone through a lot of hardship and great moments together .. and we also try to make a BIG heart shape between us as we know that we love each other as our siblings and friends ..
k10 ~ all of u will always be in my heart in what ever will happen and had happened .. I know I’ve been doing a lot of wrong things to u guys and girls .. I would like to apologise but I know the word SORRY is really a big things and won’t makes the problem go away just like that .. I couldn’t do anything else but SORRY ..
ayien tawu ayien baaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyak sangat dosa dgn korang .. dari strt lagi mmg korang sume tk suke dgn ayien .. but ! I am trying to change myself .. I want to change .. but only me and my ego which tells me not to change ... what’s wrong being childish ? what’s wrong being me ? what’s wrong being irritating girl ? .. what’s wrong with all that ? I love to be me ! all this while that is the question that always hunting me .. but I think one day there will be the answer for all my question ..
I’m happy to have all of u in my life .. I’ve never hate my friends .. eventhough , there is a lot of problems that comes from me , I would never wants to backstab anyone or hate anyone .. however , I know that u guys don’t like me .. I don’t care .. I don’t want to have any enemies in my life .. but I’m the one who make everyone to become my enemies .. i ‘m sorry ..
banyak sangat memories kitorang bersama start dari 1st day of school til end of semester one .. I appreciate it a lot .. even on march event ~ IT REALLY REALLY meaningful ! eventhough korang tk suke when ayien asyik cakap about my birthday ~ I’m too excited to become 18 yo actually .. but I know what I do is wrong cause tu cm budak2 kecik yg suke bila birthday die nk dekat ~ .. but thanks for everything ..
and I think just for now that I’m becoming your friend .. I would to be alone for now .. as for naddy I’ll be always be beside u no matter what .. I don’t care what they are talking about or talk back about us .. u will always be my madu and sweety ~ thanks for being there for me .. 
I LOVE U ALL !! eventhough I’m apart , K10 WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART !
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