Mind not in Peace

three days . i should endure the memories . you're still playing in my mind . why ? why won't you let it go ? i'm afraid . if this continues i can't endure it again and i would be more thick-skinned than before . i'm afraid if i really can't forget you and become too childish cause of love i felt right now . i don't like to have someone that i love in the same class . i know . if i have someone i loved in the same class i won't concentrate in my studies . i would always likes to look at you and won't paying any attention to what our lecturers gives us . 
would you see me as your woman once ? i know it is hard for you to love me cause you don't have any feelings towards me . but i hope you can see me as a woman not a friends . eventhough it is just for a while , i would like to be alone with you spend my time with you and i want to know more about you . i would like to be friend with you like before . i'm sorry to hurts you last time . i just can't stop my jealousy towards every girls that talks with you .
i'm telling the truth now . i felt jealous when there's girls talking with you . eventhough both of you talks about studies , i really feel jealous . that is how much i really love you and wants to protect you . i know i've makes your life miserable by telling the girls about your past . but i still confuse ! cause when your ex tells me your stories , i really shocked ~ cause i really thinks that you're not that kind of a guy . but when i heard about it , my heart really hurts and you shot me like what my ex does . you shot me at the same place where my ex shot me . it is really bleeding right now .
after so long , i hope you've realize that i love you , but you didn't show any moves or anything that you know about my feelings . but when we played truth or dare , you showed me that you know that i love you and you just wants to avoid it , am i right ? it is okay if you want to avoid me right now . i should do the same as what you were doing to me . i can't forget you . so what i can do right now is , just avoiding you and keep my feelings towards you . sorry to have the feelings towards you .
have a great semester for this semester 2 :)