Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Luahan Keluhan Luahan

Kadangkala Rasa Ingin Mengamuk Pun Ade. Tetapi Ape Kan Daya. Saya Ini Seorang Anak. Anak Perempuan Sulung Dalam Keluarga. Saya Tidak Sepatutnya Mengecewakan Mereka. Akan Tetapi Saya Tidak Boleh Mengelak Takdir. Saya Tidak Mahu Mengecewakan Mereka Dan Tidak Mahu Menyakitkan Hati Mereka Tetapi Saya Tidak Menjaga Hati Mereka Dengan Baik. Seringkali Saya Buat Salah Dan Mereka Rasa Sangat Kecewa Dengan Perbuatan Saya. Saya Ingin Mengubah Itu Tetapi Iman Saya Tidak Kuat. Saya Sering Lupa Akan Semua Ini Dan Sering Menyakitkan Hati Mereka. Amat Sedih Sekali Saya Melihat Diri Saya Ini.

"Janganlah Kamu Melawan Kata-Kata Mereka Atau Melawan Dengan Gerak-Geri Kamu. Sesungguhnya Mereka Adalah Ibu Bapa Kandung Mu ." -Kata-Kata Yang Menghantui Pemikiran Saya Apabila Saya Ingin Menjawab Mereka Atau Melawan Mereka. Dengan Kata-Kata Itu juga Membuat Saya Terfikir Sejenak. Apa Akan Terjadi Pada Diri Ini Jika Saya Melawan Mereka? Mesti Mereka Rasa Lebih Kecewa Dengan Perangai Saya Ini.

Sudah lah Kecewakan Mereka Dengan Kegagalan Saya Dengan Mengata Bohong Pada Mereka Untuk Sedapkan Hati Mereka Akan Tetapi Jejak Langkah Saya Salah. Saya Telah Kecewakan Mereka Buat Pertama Kali Dan Mereka Sungguh Sakit Hati Dengan Perbuatan Saya.

Saya Turut Berdukacita Dengan Perbuatan Saya Ini. Maaf Tidak Dapat Berbuat Apa Tetapi Saya Akan Berusaha Lebih Dengan Peluang Kedua Ini. Saya Akan Tunjukkan Perubahan Saya Dan Juga Kejayaan Saya Pada Ibu Bapa Saya. Saya Sudah Tidak Mahu Mengecewakan Diri Mereka Lagi. Insya Allah~ Semoga Allah Kuatkan Lagi Iman Saya Demi Menghadapi Cobaan Yang Diberi. Amiin ~

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Semester 3 !

Today is my first day of school for semester ! yeah ! feeling excited but too bad today is my first day of the period ! >.< ! it’s okay . i will try to make myself happy as usual . heh :) but whatever it is ..

WELCOME TO FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IN SEMESTER 3 ! hehe <3

Friday, September 30, 2011

Chicken Tomyam

today i cooked tom yam for my family ! and i’m so happy cause it works ! haha.
you want to know the ingredient and how to cook ? it simple ! here, i tell you how :-

the ingredients are :

1 pack of CHICKEN
1 pack of Fishball/fishcakes
Onion cuts in dice
a few cuts of galangal (lengkuas)
1 lime
6 leaves of lime
2 stick of LemonGrass
hot and spicy chilli (cili padi)
Tom yam paste
water

how to cook:

Firstly , Fry all the ingredient except for fishball/fishcakes and chicken. fry them till it cooks then pour some water in the pot. stir tom yam paste with hot water before place it in the pot. then pour the tom yam paste in the pot and stir it well. after all been cooked lastly put in the chicken and fishball/fishcakes and stir it well and cover the pot for 15 mins. after 15 mins stir it well and close the fire. :)

 

that’s all that u have to do.
its easy right ? hehe !

P/s : ENG HANCUR . sorry ~ broken english . hahahahahahaha !

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Frustration Occurs 1

Going out with my new family on the 26/09/2011. We’re having our outing for the first after a few months known each other. But on the day i really had no mood and feeling really frustrated with everything. I really don’t want to go back early on the day. i want to stay with them till night. I just want to release my stress and peace my mind with all the things that happen.

Before the day i just hate being in my real family. I just couldn’t accept their changes. They blame me over everything that happen. They really change a lot after what happen to me when i was in secondary 3. But I’ve promised them that i won’t do it again but they really underestimated me after what happen.

I just want to be independent. What I mean by independent is I want to learn the outside world. I don’t want to be too childish in everything I do or still need someone to take a good look at me in everything I do. I want to learn how I will handle things by myself. from there I know what is good for me and what is bad for me.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

My Twitter Updates

 

“I Miss You, But I’m Trying Not To Care. I Love You, But Im Trying Not To Show. I Want You, But What I Can Do When You Are Not Even Mine?”

“#Cancer .. Could be very Funny , very Quiet and suddenly very Sad”

“People Often Change For Two Reason :
1. You’ve Learned Enough That You Want To Change;
2. You’ve Been Hurt Enough That You Need To”

“#Sagitarius ..The One Sometimes Missing In The Brain to Mouth Filter and They Sometimes Say Things Are Better Left Unsaid.”

“Missing Someone Badly Is Like Singing An Incomplete Notes Until You Meet Them”

“Rumours Are Like Fires. No One Admits To Starting Them And Before You Know It, They’re Out Of Control!”

“I May Love The Wrong Person And Cry For The Wrong Reason; One Thing For Sure, Mistakes Help Me Find TheRight Person.”

“If You Feel Sad, Down Or Troubled, Revisit The Quran There Lies The Answers.”

“I Learned Never To Tell Your Problems To Anyone. Because 20% Don’t Care And The Other 80% Are Glad You Have Them.”

“When You Truly Care For Someone, Their Mistakes Never Change My Feelings Cause It’s Mind That Gets Angry But Heart Still Cares.”

“I Can Be There For You If You Need Me Even If We Are Strangers Because I Believe I Understand You Better Than Anyone Else.”

“I’m Sorry If Sometimes I Get A Little Jealous, Thinking That Someone Else Could Make You Happier Than I Could.”

“ “I’m Sorry”, is a Statement.
   “I Won’t Do It Again” , is a Promise
   “How Do I Make It Up To You?” , is a Responsibility.”

“When A Woman Tells You About Her Problems, It Doesn’t Mean She’s Complaining. It Means She’s Trust You.”

“Dreams Are What You Wish Life Was Like, Nightmares Are What You Know Life Already Is.”

“Never Think You’re Nothing. Never Tell Yourself You’ll Never Be Goo Enough, Because To Someone You’re Everything.”

“When We Pray; Allah Hears More Than We Say , Answer More Than We Ask , Gives More Than We Imagine In His Own Times And His Own Way.”

“Pain Is Temporary, Quitting Lasts Forever.”

“Thank You Allah For Showing Us The Light In This Dunya.”

“Girls Are Great At Faking Smiles But Guys Are Great At Faking LOVES.”

“Even If You Fall Hard, You Just Have To Stand up, Not For Anybody Else But For Yourself.”

 

[All Credits To Twitter <3 ! ]

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

my feelings

Why do I have to fall for you ?
Why do I have to think about you ?
Why do you always there in my dreams ?

Do I really can't forget about you ?
Do I really not over you ?

I have to think all this question all over again. :( IMISSYOUSOMUCH !!!
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Monday, September 12, 2011

Dari Lubuk HatiKu

Persoalan di dalam hati dan minda ku :-

Mungkinkah perasaan itu hanya seketika?

Mungkinkah itu hanya permainan hati?

Boleh kah aku melupakannya?

Apakah tujuan dan niatku sambung di sekolah ini?

adakah untuk mencari pasangan atau belajar?

Dan jawapan yang telah aku jawab :-

tujuan dan niatku ke sekolah adalah untuk belajar..
aku tidak mahu melepaskan peluangku untuk mengejar cita-citaku..
aku ingin mencapai cita-cita yang aku ingini sejak kecil..
itu semua hanya perasaanku..
jangan lah ikut perasaan yang akan menjatuhkan keinginanku untuk mencapai cita-citaku..
dan sering kali aku terdengar "sesungguhnya hati ini berbolak-balik"..
ini bermakna perasaan yang dirasa dihati akan sering bertukar-tukar..
dan aku sering berkata pada diriku ini "aku harus pandang pada tujuan dan niatku.. jangan lah ikut perasaan sangat! (please focus on what u need not what u want!)"..

aku kini mencuba untuk membetulkan kembali niatku untuk belajar ..

:D